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Chapter Two ( The Urge) What was more disturbing to note is the fact that my dad treated me as one with a plague. P uberty brought with it certain daily demands, sexual arousal was one of the daily rites. I was afraid to walk the streets during the day without tight underwear we referred to as " Paiint " in the Nigerian Pigin language, because of the bulge inside my shorts due to an erection. Other times I had to hold down my erected male organ through one of my pockets to weigh down the bulge.

...I became afraid. No! Terrified to bath in the bathroom even when it was vacant, even in his absence I feared him... Chapter One Dear dairy, the nightmares began when I woke up one morning. I was fifteen years old at the time; I headed for the compound’s public toilet as was my routine most mornings. Immediately I opened the toilet door I noticed the floor was wet and I could smell urine, which signified am not the first to visit, the single toilet was shared among at least twenty three neighbours of all age brackets, it’s a miracle the ceramic toilet bowl retained some level of whiteness. I had always loved the toilet floor dry. It somehow aids me in doing some level of thinking, although I always go into the toilet with my own plastic mobile potty.

Song and prayer of Saints 1 Thou hast cleansed our eyes and it cannot behold iniquity. 2 Thou hast purged our minds from strange imaginations and our thoughts from sinful meditations. 3 Surely, thy grace hath made us loathe sin and every unrighteousness: 4  Our lips thou hast touched with thy fiery coal; profanity is an abomination us and we detest the way of lying. 5 Your fear is our inspiration, therefore we hate wickedness. 6 Thou hath made us to know your paths, O Lord your righteousness is exceedingly great. 7  We will praise thee more and more for in your salvation there is exceeding joy: 8  Our feet shall dance and our lips will sing, for thou alone art holy. 9 Teach us O Lord, and keep us in remembrance of your great name everyday. we will lift our hands to thee, our soul doth bless thee, indeed our soul doth bless thee. 10  We will not wickedly depart from our God, yea we will not go astray; thy Spirit hath strengthened us, thou art become our sh